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Blowing the Coal to Flame

by Jared Knaup

I’m a divorced man, and I live in Wichita Falls, Texas. I own my own home, and I work as a physical therapist.

Marriage Struggles

What first started me towards Orgasmic Meditation (OM) was my marriage. I loved her, but we couldn’t make any progress together. I couldn’t get her to be honest with herself or with me about what she wanted. You go into marriage with these high hopes of happiness and connection, and sometimes, you end up with just the opposite. That was certainly the case for us. And what was so disheartening to me was that I thought I was a pretty skillful person in relationships before this marriage. Long before I came to Orgasmic Meditation (OM), I had tried so many techniques and practices. No matter what I tried, it just blew back in my face.

My ex started gaining weight. I didn’t have a problem with that at first; people’s bodies change, and that’s normal. Then I realized she was eating to kill the pain that she wouldn’t talk about. She was literally building a suit of armor to protect her from the world. The heavier she got, the less anyone could get to her. It was incredibly painful.

After the divorce, I struggled. I had family and friends and went on dates, but there was a feeling of disconnection with everyone.  It was so hard. I can’t describe how lonely I was and how much it hurt. Even in the midst of all of that pain after the divorce, I kept searching for a technique that would combine the components I knew I needed. I was looking for something that dealt with intimacy, meditation, and deep, intimate connection. I knew it had to be out there somehow. I found a few other techniques that were close, but they were just okay. After practicing them for a while, I knew they weren’t quite what I was looking for. 

Discovering Orgasmic Meditation

Then, someone sent me a TED Talk about OM - Orgasmic Meditation. I don’t think I’d been listening for more than a minute before I knew that it was the thing for me. This was what was going to shift everything for me, I was sure. I could feel the energy right away. I watched a few videos online and learned the basic technique. I OM’d with a few people here in Wichita and then I felt inspired to go take a class in Austin, where there were even more people who practiced Orgasmic Meditation. 

As I continued developing my Orgasmic Meditation practice, I found my communication with everyone getting better. I could connect with my own desires and express them much more effectively than I ever had before. There’s just this huge buzz in sharing our own desires, whether or not those desires can be met. It's almost irrelevant whether they do or don’t. It’s just the fact that you're in touch with desire, and you are acknowledging it and engaging with it through sharing with others. That really is enough.

OM Enhancing Professional Life

I’ve always figured that if you can talk about intimacy with someone, you can talk about absolutely anything. The frankness and directness of Orgasmic Meditation really helped me make amazing progress in my relationships with women, and that’s been great. It’s also what I hoped for and expected. But what has really surprised me is that it has helped me so much in my work as a physical therapist. My relationships with my patients have also been transformed. I can sense their needs better and understand how to help them better.

The whole root of OM - Orgasmic Meditation is connecting with desire. You feel your own desire, and you connect to someone else’s. The best way I can describe it is to say it's like blowing on a coal and watching it blossom into flame. And I want to keep seeing those flames.

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