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by Doug

I've always been good at being friends with women. My feminine side was cultivated by my sisters and a strong mother, so I know how to be sympathetic and respectful to women. But getting beyond friendship became a challenge in my late twenties.

Relationship Challenges

My first relationship began when I was sixteen and lasted eleven years. By the time I was 27, I was in a state of confusion. I didn't know what I was doing with my career, and I was suppressing a lot of my emotional self, which left me depressed. 

So there I was, trying to figure out how to be a single adult male for the first time in my life. I had no idea how to explore the intimacy of a relationship. I was going out talking to girls for the first time like a sixteen-year-old but in a 27-year-old's body. 

At one point, I started dating someone who lived in L.A. when I was living in San Francisco. She said she wanted to hang out, but when I drove down to L.A. to see her, she said, “Why are you here? I didn't mean I wanted to hang out right now.” I realized I had no idea what I was doing. 

Finding OM

It was time to look around for something that would help me communicate with women. I've always been open-minded, and if something's a little scary or uncomfortable, it actually attracts me. So, when I learned about OM, I was willing to try it.

Most strokers talk about OM getting them in touch with all kinds of sensations in their bodies, but that wasn't the case for me. The main part of OM that intrigues me is the connection to the clitoris and getting to know how it is tied to the rest of the woman's body. I liked learning to plug into it in the most direct way and then building an understanding around it. Every time I OMed, I could sense the other person's body more and more, and also how the physical, the mental, and the emotional are linked together. These insights inform me about every part of human behavior so that I can take them into relationships, careers, family, and everywhere.

Professional Application

There was a contractor I worked with who was brilliant but hard to get along with. People would want his skills, but then they'd decide they couldn't deal with him. I sensed he had a chaotic nature that took over when he was emotional. I decided not to pay attention when he said offensive things because I could see where it was coming from. I didn't react, and I didn't judge him. We had a productive time working together. A couple of years later, he called me up and said he was so grateful he wanted to return the favor by getting me on the executive team at his new job. 

Improved Presence through OM

My problem about communicating with women was resolved in a way I could never have envisioned. I learned that if I want to get to know a woman, I don't really have to do anything. I just show up and be present. I can pick up on if a woman is attracted to me, if she wants something more from me, in nonverbal ways. If I'm interested in her, then I just open up space for her to feel comfortable and secure; however she's feeling, I stay attentive and just listen. I've never had a situation, from my thirties on, where I had to direct anything. The more women saw that I could be respectful and attentive, the more they were attracted. A free channel of expression opened up the possibility of spontaneity. Those experiences increased my confidence in connection.

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