I found out about Orgasmic Meditation (OM) through a friend of mine, who invited me to an introductory event. She had a ticket for a guest and knew me well enough to know I am crazy for these kinds of things—personal growth, relationships, masculine/feminine sexuality. So, she invited me, and I went. After that, I was super into what I learned. I went deep and kept attending more events, learning everything I could. It was six or seven weeks later before I tried Orgasmic Meditation. My first OM seemed like I had been unsuccessful in a way. Yet, my body felt really good afterward, and I was ready to try again.
OMing feels amazing to me. I love OMing. It’s so vulnerable and special. I get a feeling of gorgeous energy coming up through my arm into my belly, into my genitals and legs. It’s like it lubricates my whole system. I like who I am when I’m OMing. Before Orgasmic Meditation (OM), I recall feeling like a mechanic when I relate to people: say this thing here, do this thing there. It felt dry and empty. After I started practicing OM for a while, it got way better. I have a new understanding of feminine communication, and my own intuition has gotten a lot sharper.
By getting more energetically attuned and sensitive, I can now feel a spot in conversations and interactions with anyone. Tuning into it brings an incredible change to the experience. I know more intuitively what they are really trying to tell me. I also have more compassion for others. For instance, it’s fun to be able to guide people to where they sense this spot in conversations and see their reactions. It brings more honesty and vitality into every interaction.
Once, I was working with a colleague who wasn’t into the work she was doing. It was fun to find that spot with her and give her total permission without trying to make her do something she was so resistant to doing. She had never had a conversation like that before; every time in her past, when she had needed to quit or change work, she would feel guilted into staying. It was fun to free her of this pattern and help her recognize the job wasn’t right for her. The conversation I had with her felt really beautiful.
I can also feel and hear sensations behind people’s and my own words. It is so powerful to hear whether or not people’s words have a sensation. I’m a teacher, and when I teach, I can see this in the writing assignments of my high school students. I can feel that what they wrote has sensation in it. If it doesn’t, we need to scrap it and find a way to get sensation in it. Those always turn into really cool essays.
Even as I hear myself talk every day, I can tell through listening to my own voice whether it has a sensation or if I’m full of crap. This is a constant micro-adjusting, tuning-in process I will probably have for the rest of my life. It will likely lead to a much different life, where I spend a lot less time putting up with annoying or inauthentic behavior—most of all from myself. Orgasmic Meditation taught me how to find what feels real for me.
