I came to this practice in need of so much healing, particularly around my relationships with men. I’m 41 now, and I came to Orgasmic Meditation (OM) a few years ago – after nearly 20 years of experiencing objectification, contempt, catcalls, and many other hurtful things.
I experienced trauma ranging from severe to simply depressing. Sex brought up all of these feelings for me, but I could never find someone with whom to process those feelings safely. I wasn’t looking to change my life when I attended an Orgasmic Meditation workshop. The reason I went was to meet men.
I did meet a man during my first workshop. We didn’t have chemistry, but I felt comfortable and relaxed with him, and I could tell he felt the same with me. I tried OM with him, and from the time I crawled into the nest, I thought it was just about the most fascinating thing I’d ever encountered. I was intrigued – and more remarkably, for me, given all my anxieties and suspicions around anything to do with intimacy with men, I was relaxed.
I often would be hyper-aware that experiences with men weren’t ever exactly the way I wanted them to be. The practice of Orgasmic Meditation shifted all that. I could say stop when I wanted. I could ask for any change I liked and be sure I would get it. This might not seem revolutionary to some people, but it was a complete revelation to me.
Before OM—Orgasmic Meditation, I was very big on trying new things. You name it; I did it if I wanted to. I’ve had this big, amazing life, and I’ve had so many incredibly interesting experiences. After trying OM, I realized how passive I was during those experiences. I might go skydiving, for example, and enjoy it, but it never occurred to me that I could change my experience of skydiving.
Whatever happened when I jumped out of the airplane was supposed to happen the way it happened. I realized I could start going deeper and start developing a sense of what I wanted. The practice helped me develop a tool for helping to ask for whatever it was I wanted. I can enter into something and leave just as quickly and no longer have to endure anything in uncomfortable silence.
I’ve done a lot of therapy over the years, as well as other healing modalities. Don’t get me wrong; they’re all great and valuable. The experience of this practice took healing to the next level. It provided healing for my deepest shame and trauma, and it did so in a way that incorporated my whole body. I couldn’t talk my way through this. It’s like the difference between telling someone your neck hurts and going to the chiropractor for actual relief. That’s what Orgasmic Meditation is like for me– an extremely safe, nurturing, enduringly healing chiropractic visit.
