I have always been a seeker. Before I knew about Orgasmic Meditation, I searched for something, but I couldn’t pinpoint it. I’d succeeded on the traditional path: graduating college with honors, getting a good job, and checking all the boxes of things my culture said would make me happy, but I didn’t feel fulfilled or satisfied.
I tried all sorts of hobbies to fill this void, but it only seemed to grow and make me hungrier. I was so out of touch with my feelings that I didn’t even realize I wasn’t happy. It’s just the way things were.
I’d recently gotten divorced and was in the process of rediscovering myself when I heard a TED Talk about OM. It was about how so many women are constantly trying to fill a void, whether it’s through food, shopping, dieting, or something else. I said, “This is me and every woman I know.”
My boyfriend and I discovered OM together and thought it sounded fun. We got trained and started practicing. At first, I just found it fascinating and edgy. Soon, however, it changed my life in unexpected ways.
As my practice developed, I could pay closer attention to what I felt during OMs. I woke up to the sensations in my body and uncovered a whole world there. I learned how to surrender and found incredible power in that. I discovered that vulnerability leads to more connection and makes me feel more alive.
But the seismic shifts happened when I began using the tools of Orgasmic Meditation (OM) in life outside the nest and in it. Being present during OMs taught me how to feel the sensations in my body and use them to understand myself and connect with others. Requesting adjustments taught me how to ask for what I wanted. I grew by taking these insights into the rest of my life and my relationships with others.
Orgasmic Meditation taught me to be fully present and find pleasure in whatever I’m present for: the lighter strokes and the harder ones, literally and figuratively. I can stay present when my body feels irritated or when my partner seems like they’re falling asleep. And that helps me stay present with people outside of OM—like my son when he’s getting anxious or family members when angry with me.
The practice has also prompted me to rethink many societal messages and expectations that are false or that don’t serve me. I have come to understand my own beliefs and desires independently of the messages my culture taught me: that I was a bad woman if I wanted "too much," that women lose desire as a relationship progresses, that a couple’s intimate life always declines over time, that vulnerability is a weakness. I came to question all of these assumptions and, ultimately, to redefine them for myself.
In the past, my intimate life in relationships had declined over time because we weren’t able to ask for what we wanted. Communicating during OMs taught me how to make adjustments so that this didn’t happen. I could ask for what I wanted in a loving, open way and have my partner feel successful.
Within myself, I learned to embrace my desires instead of hiding them. I became more flirtatious and playful and wanted to share that with the world. Life was much more pleasurable in that state.
Orgasmic Meditation (OM) helped me see intimacy and relationships as separate things. I could choose how I wanted to put them together, not just operate based on the subconscious beliefs about them that my culture had given me. I developed the confidence that my desires were right and the ability to fully express myself in all areas of my life. I know what I want, how to ask for it, and how to receive it—from people, God, and the universe.
By practicing presence, I’ve learned to ride the ups and downs of life. I know how to be myself in joy, play, and happy times, as well as in grief, sadness, disappointment, or anger. I’ve found approval not just for myself but for life.
My connection to my spirituality has grown, so I don’t feel empty. I don’t need to fill a void anymore because instead of following my culture’s formula for happiness, I can feel what makes me happy. I used to feel like I was climbing a mountain of achievements, but now, I’m just enjoying the journey.
