"I think you may have to accept it will always hurt," my doctor bluntly informed me after a visit in hopes of reigniting the spark between my husband and me. After having two children, our intimate life took a turn south. I often found myself drinking alcohol before sex to numb the pain, but it didn’t help that much. On some nights, I’d simply bite my lip and bear the pain.
My doctor concluded it was a result of postpartum scar tissue inside my vagina. My husband didn’t help matters either. After two children, my body had changed. My husband made snide comments about it that did little to help my body recover or put me at ease and shed baby weight. Instead, I became an introvert, and my friends worried that depression was setting in. Divorce soon followed.
After my divorce, I finally felt free to breathe and be myself more, but I was still left with body dysmorphia. Even worse, I was still experiencing pain during sex. I often felt uncomfortable with my body and tried to show as little of it as possible. I just wanted a relationship with intimacy that didn’t leave me distressed. Finally, I started to research what I could do to help. Google pointed me in the direction of Orgasmic Meditation. I shrugged it off as a curiosity until it came up in conversation with a friend. I went to the introduction session to learn more.
My experience was life-changing. I found a male OM partner with whom I could OM consistently. OM—Orgasmic Meditation helped me find real pleasure beyond the pain. As a traveling medical saleswoman, I could work OM sessions into my schedule between appointments. I brought my boyfriend to an introduction course, and very soon after, we started practicing OM together. I started to enjoy sex again as a byproduct of my Orgasmic Meditation practice. I didn’t have to drink to enjoy it anymore.
I also feel that Orgasmic Meditation has given our relationship a new platform to communicate. Even when we disagree, we can OM together and reconnect with cooler heads. OM allowed me to rediscover my confidence and my voice in the most intimate and vulnerable space, and that confidence transferred over to the rest of my life.
Within six months of OM—Orgasmic Meditation, I lost thirty pounds, found my deeper passion again, and my relationship became a source of joy. Before OM, I was mulling over breast augmentation to try and ‘fix’ my body’s postpartum “flaws,” but it didn’t seem necessary anymore after OM. I felt at home in my body, maybe even more than I ever had. I trust my body… When I listen to the yes, I feel good. When I listen to the no, I feel good. Orgasmic Meditation has allowed me to find comfort in my body and the confidence necessary to enjoy life.
