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Men, Intuition, and Orgasmic Meditation: My Personal Journey

Published December, 2023
by Carl Jacobs

When I was 18, I fell in love and got my heart broken. I don't know if you'd call this trauma because it was not a thing that was done to me. We were in love, and then she left for college. I was really heartbroken and felt rejected. That's when I first started to experience depression and anxiety, which proceeded to get worse and worse over the next two years. 

Men, Women & Intimacy

Subsequent relationships were superficial; for example, I went through routine motions with little interest or care. I’d spend more and more time with a woman, and eventually, it would be like, “Oh, I guess we're dating now.” And then we’d spend more time together and then, “Oh, I guess we're boyfriend and girlfriend now.” I didn't know what it meant to be a good boyfriend other than to be very loving, which I already am. I have a big bear heart, and love has been my baseline. But I didn't understand how to be attentive to a woman’s desires or feelings. 

I had a lot of doubts and other kinds of feelings that I didn't share in my relationships. Eventually, when I would break up with the person, it always felt like it came out of nowhere. Afterward, I never stayed friends with any of my exes. 

A Men's Path To Skillfulness

My first introduction to OM was an article in a magazine. I was immediately intrigued by the practice and the community. For many years, I had been trying to find ways to gain more experience with women, and OM seemed to be a practice that would deepen intimacy and concentration and provide other really healthy benefits. I’d recently started meditating, shifting my religious philosophy from monotheistic Judaism to a more Buddhist thought system. I think this primed me to get a lot out of the OM experience. 

Frankly, it was amazing to hear about a practice that didn't require all the usual protocols of meeting someone - buying a woman a drink or taking her out to dinner. And I was totally cool with the idea that the man would stroke, and the woman would be stroked. It made total sense to me and was the kind of experience I wanted. I wasn’t in it to experience more pleasure. I wanted to get more skillful. So, the practice seemed really compelling and rather mind-blowing.

My first OM was unlike any other experience I'd had. It was very direct. I remember feeling nervous and uncomfortable in my body because my posture was a little bit uncomfortable. I also wasn’t sure if anything was happening. I was looking and listening for some expression from my partner that would let me know I was doing a good job and that it was feeling good to her. And I remember there wasn't a lot of that, so I was confused and confronted. I did feel a little zing of electricity on my finger, though.

After the OM was over, she had a big smile on her face, and we shared our experiences I remember feeling a lot of energy in my body. Just walking out onto the streets of San Francisco, I felt alive and bright.

Leaning On Intuition

The most impactful thing about OM has been learning to listen and feel with my body. I started to be able to intuit what was happening in the experience, and that would guide my stroking. There's a feeling when you're on “the spot,” and you know it. There's a feeling of deep connection with the other person. It’s an undeniable and compelling feeling. I remember, early on, I would get so excited about being on the spot that my inclination would be to stroke harder and faster. But then it didn't last very long, so I learned to change my stroke to slower and lighter while paying even closer attention. When I did that, I would feel fully saturated by the experience and soaked in enjoyment.

Leaning into my intuition has given me a lot of confidence—and not just in an OM. And that has helped me with women more than any other thing. I no longer accidentally find myself in a relationship that I have no desire to be in. When I'm dating somebody, I have clear conversations about what I'm looking for and ask about what they're looking for and what they want. I’m comfortable getting into some of my past history, and it's been really nice. Even when a relationship doesn't work out, I've managed to stay friends with a lot of women because I've been able to be really honest and forthright about everything. I attribute this to my time spent with other OM practitioners. 

Seeing With New Eyes

The practice itself is a nervous system reset. I used to drink a lot and smoke a lot of pot. I don't do those things anymore. I have healthier ways of managing how I feel. I do yoga. I meditate. Beyond that, OM has become a practice that I can use to regulate my stress levels.

OM has brought me closer to other people, and I have greater intimacy and the ability to read where they’re at. For example, recently, a friend of mine was feeling uncomfortable in a group of people, and there was this funny moment where he said, “Hey, dude, let's go get some snacks.” I knew it wasn’t about snacks. I knew he was uncomfortable, and I could sense he was missing his wife, who had been out of the country for several months. Despite his reluctance, I shared a comforting moment with him in a man-to-man conversation. And it was a really nice thing to be able to do that for and with him and feel that closeness. It’s taken some years doing the practice, but I genuinely feel like the healing process is complete. I can never go back to being broken again. I can never go back to being incompetent and heartbroken. I feel reborn.

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