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Healing My Fear of Men Through Orgasmic Meditation

Published December, 2023
by Arièˆnne

I was young when I made the decision not to have a boyfriend. School was stressful, and my family made a lot of demands that I couldn't say no to. It seemed to me that a boyfriend would just add a new level of demands and more reasons to risk people being mad at me. I also didn't consider myself sexy or attractive because I was slightly overweight. Eventually, I went out with a few guys but never got into a long-term relationship.

Men, Meditation, and Desire

In my late thirties, I'd been celibate for nine years. I was living in Suriname, which is such a small country that it's hard to even go out to dinner without everyone knowing. As in other Caribbean countries, men tend to settle down early, so there weren't many available men in my age group. Being single was not a big problem for me since I was focused on my job, but I recognized that all of my desires were essentially shut down.

While studying a certain meditation practice, I participated in a program that released stress from my body. To my surprise, I noticed pulsing sensations in my clitoris. After the program, I continued to feel those sensations, especially when I was meditating. I wondered if there was a link between meditation and desire. When I Googled the two terms, I came across Orgasmic Meditation. I watched a video about Orgasmic Meditation (OM) and thought it sounded intriguing. 

Discovering Orgasmic Meditation

When I moved back to my home country of the Netherlands, I met a woman at a business networking event who made a presentation about Orgasmic Meditation. There weren't people in my life who were interested in discussing intimacy, but she was eager to talk about these topics. 

I really wanted to try Orgasmic Meditation, but I was anxious about finding an OM partner who would be sensitive to me. I found someone with experience with Orgasmic Meditation (OM) and met him for lunch. By the end of the meal, I sensed he would be trustworthy and would respect my boundaries. We made an appointment for my first OM, but the evening before, I panicked.

Overcoming Intimacy Fears

It was so off the radar of what I was used to, the idea of having someone I barely knew touch my clitoris. I decided I would meet with him and see how I felt at the moment. The next day, I was quite calm. We had a cup of tea, and I felt okay. He had the nest all prepared, and I lay down. It was scary to move toward experiencing being touched intimately after being removed from it for so long. Orgasmic Meditation allowed me to ease softly into my body. The OM session was soothing, like a sweet caress on my heart. I felt waves of sweetness that I could fall into. I was able to relax on a deep level. 

Accepting Men As They Are

The practice also gave me time to observe: What does this stroke do? How do I feel about it? I discovered new sensations within my body. As I became more comfortable with my own feelings, I also let go of my fear of a man's arousal. I had never trusted men before. Now, I saw that men could be sensitive and caring. 

Nowadays, I feel so much more turned on --in a way that translates into other areas of life. On the street or in a business situation, I notice when men express attraction to me through what they say or how they look at me. I would have seen such behavior as dangerous in the past, but now I can sense the positive energy it represents. I don't have to follow up on their impulses, but I'm no longer threatened. I can accept them as they really are because I accept myself.

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